Our ways are not always His Ways

God promised those who have a relationship with Him, that He will guide us in the way we should go. In Psalms 32:8 it says, “I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you.” God promises that He will lead us where He wants us, if we will allow Him to.

Over the last few weeks of God’s prompting, a lot of prayer, and wise counsel, Bryn and I feel like it is the best decision for me to step away from teaching for now. I am so grateful for the support and love of the administration and community of BAIS.

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are you ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the Heavens are higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts.” This decision is a calling from God. God callings are not always what we expect, but they are perfect. God promises “…He will teach us His ways, so that we may walk in His path.”

Through all of the changes in my life with culture, just getting married, and beginning teach, I feel like I have taken on more than I can handle with teaching at this time. God says in 1 Corinthians 10:13, “No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.” I have come to a point where I have been overwhelmed with all the changes and I cannot handle the expectations and commitments that I have made before arriving in this country. Therefore, God has provided me an opportunity to step back and allow Him to use me in other ways than in the classroom at this time. I know that this is where I was supposed to be for the time being, but God has other plans for my life at this moment in time unless God reveals otherwise.

The third grade position has been posted on the Network of Christian School website. I will be teaching until God bring another third grade teacher, if God so decides. This may be days or weeks or until the end of school. This is in God’s hands and things will occur in His timing if it is His Will.

Please be praying that God’s Will will be done. I know that God’s way is always perfect and though this is difficult, I have complete peace that God will provide a teacher. I also have complete peace that if God wants me to continue until the end of the year that God will not send a third grade teacher.

My Heart is filled with joy of the opportunities that He has for me in the future. I have been able to have some great conversations with students and reveal to them the truth these last few weeks. Please pray that God would continue to give little moments where the unbelievers in my classroom would begin to connect the pieces. Pray God would give me the words to say. Pray that God would work in ways that only He can work in BAIS and in Indonesia. He is moving here and I cannot wait to see how God is going to continue to transform lives here.


Jadikan hatiku seperti Hatimu, Bapa.

Well, school has begun and life has revved up a little.  It feels like it yesterday that we first got here.  It has been a challenge and adjustment and yet such a blessing in the last 5 weeks since arriving in Indonesia.  Though it is so different from anything I have ever known, I can call it home.  It is where my heart belongs and I long for the unbelieving around me to see the truth that lies right in front of them.

This month for the majority religion has been a month of fasting from sun-up and sun down.  The members of the majority religion refrain from eating, drinking, and getting angry during this time.  It is a time to focus on Allah and become closer to Allah.  At sunset, they have what is called buka puasa or the breaking of the fast.  Buka Puasa is a very special time each day in which there is the bedug  drum and call to prayer that resounds from the TV and neighborhood mosques.  Bryn and I had the honor and privilege of joining our helper and her husband at their house in one of the native villages for Buka puasa this month.  We broke fast with their family, with a sweet snack.  The first course was made up of Es Campur, which is made up various fruits and jellies that are in coconut milk.  It is a really delicious treat that is found on the island of Java.  Then we had fish, rice, and some other side dishes.  It was a very unique and special time with my helper and her husband and it was great to be a part of their traditions and beliefs and to understand this time of Ramadan from the Muslim perspective.

This last week was Lebaran or Idul Fitri in Indonesia.  This is in some ways Indonesia’s Christmas.  The people of the majority religion visit their family and friends and ask for forgiveness for any wrongs they have committed.  They express this wish in the phrase “Mohon Maaf Lahir Batin” which means “forgive me from the bottom of my heart/soul for my wrongdoings in the past year.”  This is a time of celebration and giving in this country and it is a beautiful thought, but for the wrong reason.

Well, I have officially been a teacher for 2 weeks.  What a joy, what a blessing, and what a lot of work it is to discover how to teach to 13 very different and unique students God has placed in my classroom this year.  I have 8 Indonesian students, 1 Australian-English student, 1 American-Indian student, 1 Korean student, 2 American students.  And I have a variety of ability levels within that group from those that are very limited English to proficient English speakers.  It is a challenge that I have never had to face and it is beautiful to see all of those from different walks of life.  Please pray for me as I am trying to reach and help each of these students that God would give me knowledge and wisdom to instill truth into their lives and knowledge of how to help them in academics.

I love this country and I love being here with my husband by my side.  Though I miss my family, I know God placed me here for a reason and I am so blessed.  It is amazing to experience a new culture and have a new view on life and I look forward to learning the culture that envelops me.  The biggest challenge is speaking the language. I long to be able to speak this beautiful language and to be able to communicate with the people around me and speak truth and love into their lives.   I know that this is a process, but it is one of the desires of my heart.

During church, it is beautiful to be surrounded by brothers and sisters singing about the love and power of our Savior.  Last Sunday we were singing, “Jadikan hatiku seperti Hatimu, Bapa.”  This song has become my prayer that the Lord would “Make my heart like my Father’s heart.”  As I am teaching or walking down the road that I would be sensitive to the spirit and that His Will would be mine.  I am nothing without my Savior and my life would have no purpose without the one who gave all for me and it is for Him I live and Him alone.

Please continue to pray for protection against the spiritual forces that are so strongly against us striving to teach the truth.  Pray for the transition in this new life for me with all the joys and frustrations.   Pray for my students and their families.